I felt the call to travel to Ghana last December.
When I arrived, I was captivated with the people and the culture. I was shocked to see hundreds of children sleeping on the streets and women selling themselves as a sex object in exchange for food. But more than the devastating lifestyle, I was overjoyed with the beauty and love each person had to offer. I learned that I was truly known and loved by Jesus and I wanted everyone I met to know and believe that too.
The women in the Acts 2 Mission Center are victims of human trafficking and I knew God wanted me to take them under my wing and walk with them on their journey to hope. While humbled that God would put something so empowering on my heart, I had flashbacks of a dark past. There was a time in my life where I was so weak; the only way I could make it through the day was relying on God and God alone.
Paul says in His letter to the Philippians that he knows the secret, that he could do all things through Christ who strengthens him (Philippians 4:13).
The powerless, broken place is where the Lord was actually closest to me. It’s where I stopped depending on myself and let Him be the strength in my weakness. I didn’t know it at the time, but God was preparing me for something beautiful. He was preparing my soul to radiate His love, His peace, His joy, His forgiveness, and His salvation. He was preparing me to step in as a disciple and empower women during times of weakness. God is sending me to hold His lantern in the valley and lead the women out of the darkness to taste His unfailing love.
I have surrendered to His plan, and will be leaving for Ghana in late September and will serve for the remainder of 2016.
Sometimes I tell myself that I am not ready yet. I have so much to do and so many things to see before I go. I have friends here to laugh with and family to celebrate the holiday season with. I tell myself that I need to pray a little more and seek advice from the elders and clean up my life before I go. The truth is, God doesn’t need me any different than I am right now. He loves us through the messy and His perfect timing is right now.
The new season is coming and I really don’t know what is next. The cool thing is, I don’t have to know. God doesn’t need me to be ready to go. Heck, if I keep relying on myself and the earthly things, I’ll probably never feel fully ready to leave my life here behind and step out saying Yes, Lord. But He has been ready for me since the beginning of time. He has had my story written for centuries and now is the time to cling to His feet and let Him guide me fearlessly into the unknown, trusting His plan. I am saying YES Lord, I choose you, as you have chosen me.